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cute_lil_deeee @ 2005-11-14T18:10:00

2005-11-14T23:10:38Z

im starting this up again but i dont really ahve anything to say right now so ill write back soon

cute_lil_deeee @ 2004-12-05T16:51:00

2004-12-06T00:59:42Z

Name: marissa
Occupation: umm student i guess

APPEARANCE

001.Hair: brown
002.Eyes: blue
003.Height: 5'2?

STYLE

001.Clothing: w/e i lik
002.Music: queen rhcp green day sublime
003.Make-up: eyeliner eye hadow
004.Body art: nope

RIGHT NOW

001.Wearing: pj pants and a shirt
002.Listening to: blvd of broken dreams
003.Thinking of: darren

LAST THING YOU...

001.Bought: pizz
002.Ate and drank: cookies n water
003.Read: some book thats mrs.v's
004.Watched on TV: laguna beach

EITHER / OR

001.Club or houseparty: houseparty
002.Tea or coffee: tea
003.Achiever or slacker: achiever
004.Beer or cider: cider
005.Drinks or shots: drinks
006.Cats or dogs: neither
007.Single or taken: single
008.Pen or pencil: pencil
009.Gloves or mittens: gloves
010.Food or candy: food
011.Cassette or cd: cd
012.Coke or Pepsi: pepsi
013.Hard or mild alcohol: nada
014.Matches or a lighter: idk
015.Sunset beach or the bold and the beautiful: sunset beach
016.Ricki Lake or Oprah Winfrey: oprah

WHO DO YOU WANT TO...

001.Kill: ******* *a*tt*****
002.Hear from: ******
003.Get really wasted with: hmm
004.Look like: idk
005.Be like: myself
006.Avoid: no1 rele

LAST PERSON YOU... AND WHEN?

001.Touched: my brother...idk
002.Talked to: my ssiter iont he fono
003.Hugged: kayla(my neighbor)
004.Instant messaged: alexa b4
005.Kissed: my bro other day
006.Who broke your heart: no one

WHERE DO YOU...

001.Eat: everywhere
002.Dance: idk
003.Cry: anywhere i hav to
004.Wish you were: lake placid

HAVE YOU EVER...

001.Dated one of your best friends? no
002.Loved somebody so much it makes you cry? a little
003.Drank alcohol? no
004.Done drugs: no
005.Broken the law: no
006.Ran away from home: almost
007.Broken a bone: nope
008.Cheated on a test: prob
009.Skinny dipped: no
010.Played truth or dare: yea
011.Flashed someone: haha no
012.Mooned someone: no
013.Kissed someone you didn't know: no
014.Been on a talk/game show: no
015.Been in a fight: ya
016.Ridden in a fire truck: i think so
017.Been on a plane: yea
018.Come close to dying: no
019.Cheated on your boy/girlfriend: no
020.Gave someone a piggy back/shoulder ride: yea
021.Eaten a worm/mud pie? sort of lol
022.Swam in the ocean: yea
023.Had a nightmare/dream that made you wake up: yea...proportions lol ally

WHAT IS...

001.The most embarrassing CD in your collection? wont say
002.Your bedroom like? ummm purple
003.Your favorite thing for breakfast? rasberry srtudels from salingers!
004.Your favorite thing for lunch? idk
005.Your favorite thing for dinner? penne ala vadka
006.Your favorite Restaurant? a place in nc

ARE YOU...

001.A Vegetarian?: parially
002.A Good Student?: yea i guess..
003.Good At Sports?: yea
004.Good At Wakeboarding/Snowboarding: i guess
005.A Good Singer?: no
006.A good Actor/Actress?: nah
007.A deep sleeper?: sometimes
008.A Good Dancer?: no
009.Shy?: once in awhile
010.Outgoing?: sometimes
011.A good storyteller?: sometimes

cute_lil_deeee @ 2004-11-12T16:36:00

2004-11-13T00:46:30Z

Last Person who:
+ Slept in your bed: me
+ Saw you cry: idk
+ Spent the night at your house: umm...alexa n sara a while ago
+ You shared a drink with: noelle
+ You went to the movies with: stef
+ You went to the mall with: my mom
+ Yelled at you: my dad
+ Sent you an e-mail: I couldn't tell ya..I don't really check it.
+ Said they were going to kill you: umm..i can't remember.
+ Said "I love you" and meant it: hmm....

+ Been to New York? Of course
+ Been to Florida? yep...many times
+ California? no but i want to
+ Hawaii? no...another place i would love to go
+ Mexico? no
+ China? no
+ Canada? no
+ Danced naked? no
+ Dreamed something really crazy and then it happened the next day? I think so.
+ Got a really bad feeling about something then it happened? yeah
+ Had your heart broken? Kinda
+ Been the heart breaker? Possibly
+ Wish you were the opposite sex? Sometimes..only for a day though.
+ Had an imaginary friend? nope

RANDOM
+ What are you going to do after you finish this survey? Take a shower, hopefully talk 2 nick
+ What was the last food you ate? pasta
+ High school or college? High school
+ Are you bored? very
+ How many buddies are on? I'm not gunna count.
+ Last movies you saw? the grudge
+ Last noise you heard? music
+ Last time you went out of the state: um a while
+ Things you like in a girl/guy: Personality, Sense of humor and if I can be myself around them.
+ Do you have a crush on someone? yeah
+ What book are you reading now? speak
+ Favorite board game? dunno
+ Favorite magazine? j 14 cuz i like the pics
+ How many times have you been in love? 1? 2?
+ Worst feeling in the world? I don't know
+ What is the first thing you think when you wake in the morning? what i have to do that day.
+ How many rings before you answer? usually 2
+ Future daughter's Favorite girl's name: shaina madison
+ Future son's Favorite boy's name? Ryan travis
+ Do you sleep with a stuffed animal? no
+ If you could have any job you wanted, what would it be? a photographer
+ Are you a lefty, righty or ambidextrous? righty
+ Do you type with your fingers on the right keys? yeah
+ What's under your bed? another bed
+ Favorite sport to watch? softball
+ Hair Color: light brown
+ Eye Color: blue
+ Height Currently: 5'3
+ Glasses/contacts: nope
+ Current Age: 13
+ Siblings: michelle marni thomas anthony
+ Siblings age: 14 26 9 (well almost) 7
+ Location: ny
+ Plans: for what?
+ Any Piercings: ears.
+ Boyfriend/Girlfriend: no
+ Are You Timely Or Always Late: usually timely
+ Do You Have A Job: babysitting
+ Do You Like Being Around People: yeah.
+ Have you ever loved someone you had no chance with: um idk
+ Have You Ever Cried Over What Someone of The Opposite Sex Did: Don't know.
+ Do You Have A "Type" Of Person You Always Go After: Umm..Not sure.
+ Want Someone You Don't Have Right Now: yeah
+ Are You Lonely Right Now: Not really
+ Ever Afraid You'll Never Get Married: yes
+ Do You Want To Get Married: yeah
+ Do You Want Kids: yeah 2 or 3

IN THE LAST 48 HOURS, HAVE YOU:
+ Cried: no
+ Bought Something: lunch?
+ Gotten Sick: no
+ Sang: yeah right
+ Said I Love You: no
+ Wanted To Tell Someone You Loved them, But Didn't: mmm yah
+ Met Someone New: no
+ Moved On: what do you mean?
+ Talked To Someone: uhh yeah
+ Had A Serious Talk: no
+ Missed Someone: yes
+ Hugged Someone: nope
+ Kissed Someone: nope
+ Fought With Your Parents: nope
+ Dreamed About Someone You Can't Be With: mhmm
+ Had a lot of sleep: Not really

havent written in a while....

2004-11-12T23:34:53Z

Name: marissa
Age: 13
Gender: Female
Height: 5'2?
Birthday: septtember 4
Hair Color: Brown
Describe yourself in one word: idk
Describe your personality in one word: funny

.:Love Life:.
Sexual Preference:
Do you have a bf/gf: no
If so,what is their name: ------------------------------------------------------
How long have you been dating: ----------------------------------------------------------
Do you consider yourself in love with them: --------------------------------------------------------------
If so,why: ------------------------------------------------------------
Have you had your first kiss: yes
If so,when: last yr
Do you have a crush: i think
If so,what is their name: ____
Why do you like them: Funny, really Nice
Do they know you: yes
Do they know that you like them: no
How long have you known them: a couple weeks
.:Friends:.
Best Friend(s): alexa
How long have you been friends: a lil over a yr
Do you consider yourself a good friend: Most of the time
How many friends do you think you have: good friends.....maybe 15
Most popular: idk
Most conceited: I would rather not say
Friendliest: Erika
Meanest: I would rather not say
Prettiest: krystal
Craziest: stef
Oldest: krystal
Youngest: kelly
Most recent: alex?
Smartest: sara
.:Favorites:.
Food: pepperoni pizza
Person: alexa
Number: 44
Show: Laguna Beach
Letter: dont have 1
Song: Dont have one
Band/Singer: queen,RHCP
Place in the world: lake placid
Season: winter
.:Your-:.
Dream Vacation: Hawaii
Dream House: A big one
Dream Room: a big one
Location: lake placid
.:Last Time You:.
Watched T.V.: yesterday
Went to the bathroom: a few minutes ago
Ate: a few minutes ago
Slept: last nite
Listened to music: now
Used the phone: 1 hr ago
IMed someone/Got an IM: a seconds ago
Went to school: a few hrs ago
Played a game: a few days ago
Took a shower: last night
Hugged someone: a day ago
Went on a date: a while ago
Wrote a letter: a long time ago
Cried: a while ago
.:Last Person You:.
Hugged: anthony
Kissed: ______________
Laughed at: my mom
Cried over: no1
IMed/Got an IM from: stef
Hurt: i dont know
Talked to: mom
Spoke to on the phone: my mom
Ate with: erin
Spent time with: i dont know`
Saw: my brothers
Missed: **** *******
Heard: my mom
Played with: my brother

.:Have You Ever:.
Been out of the country: yes
Been out of state/province: yes
Done drugs: no
Done anything illegal: not that i no of
Slapped someone: yes
Cut yourself: not on purpose
Played an instrument: yes
Hurt someone for no reason: no
Hurt someone: yes
Killed an insect/bug: yes
Gotten stung by a bee: yes
Lied to your parents: yes
Stole Something: no
Kissed Someone: yes

.:This Or That:.
Rock or Rap: rock
Singing or Songwriting: song writting
Tennis Shoes or Sandals: sandals
Phone or Computer: computer
Biking or Skating: skating
Analog or Digital: digital
Coke or Pepsi: pepsi
Sprite or Sierra Mist: sierra mist
MTV or VH1: mtv
R&B or Country: r&b
Cingular or T-Mobile: t mobile
Cats or Dogs: dogs
AIM or Yahoo: aim
Bzoink or Quizilla: bzoink

.:Word Association:.
Birthday: Party
Peanut: Butter
Good Charlotte: Sucks
Ravioli: yummy
President Bush: is cool
T.V.: mtv
Rock: lovin it
Rap: is gay
Chef:
Boys: are hot
Girls: are bitches
Calendar: huh
Fan: wtf
Evil: is live spelt backwards

.:Right Now:
Eating: nothing
Drinking: nothing
Watching: nothing
What is on your mousepad: junior rangers
What are you doing: This thing
What song are you listening to: the zepher song
What's in your CD player: a mix
Wearing: Pants and a shirt
Time: 6:31
Month: November
Day of the Month: 12
Year: 2004
Day of the week: friday
What website are you on: none

.:Random Things:.
What color is your mousepad: blue
What color is your keyboard: black
What is the phrase you use the most online: idk
Did you like this survey: no
Are you sad that it's over: no
What are you gonna do after this survey is over: talk 2 ____ hopefully
Do you like pop-up ads: no
How long have you been online: o long time

HALLOWEEN!

2004-10-31T12:32:28Z

yeah yesterday like all i did was talk 2 alexa and sara a little. i have a new sn ask me 4 it n ill give it 2 u. then i went 2 the ice rink, i saw darren we're twins with r awesome hats ;) lol. Then i went 2 hardscarabble. there was a halloween party 4 the little kids. i went 2 c sarah n nicole v. i even saw nicole b. i havent talked 2 her in a while. i hope she comes away with us in february! its gunna b great....yeah so anyways i mostly talked 2 nicole and nicole. it was good 2 c sarah n nicole again since i only get to see them in the summer :( I have softball then alexa and sara are coming over and maybe leah 2. stef isnt coming cuz we got in a stupid fight as usual...its not even worth it but w/e...idc care anymore :-D

STOLEN!

2004-10-30T15:23:17Z

][ name: Marissa
][ birthday: september 4
][ siqn:virgo
][ aqe: 13
][ sex: female
][ location: brewster
][ qlasses/contacts: no
][ braces: no
][ fat/skinny: average
][ tall/short: average
][ do you like ketchup: yes
][ do you like mustard: yes
][ do you like mayonnaise: yes
][ do you like pickles: yes
][ do you like boys or qirls: boys
][ do you like pickle relish: nah
][ do you like chicken: yes
][ do you like spinach: its OK
][ do you have any siblings: yes
][ what are their names: michelle marni thomas anthony
][ how old are they: 26 14 7 8
][ do you have any pets: no
][ do you like pokemon?: no
][ do you talk to voices in your head?: no
][ do they tell you to do stuff?: --
][ do you listen?:--
][ how often do you talk on the phone?: often
][ how often do you surf the web?: too often
][ how often do you hang out with friends?: all the time :)
][ do you love them?: of course!
][ have you ever hooked up with someone?: no
][ are you loopy?: ?
][ have you ever broken any bones?: no
][ how often do you shower?: everyday
][ are you qonna qo to college?: yes
][ email/snail mail?: email
][ do you like qold or silver jewelry?: silver
][ ever pranked a 1-800 number?: yeah
][ how long does it take you to get ready for school?: 20 minutes
][ do you have a crush?: yeah
][ what are their names?: --
][ do you sleep with one or 2 pillows?: 2
][ do you like coffee?: sometimes
][ how do you know the person who sent this to you?: school

-where-
][ do you want to live?: colorado
][ is the most fun place to go?: to many places
][ do you want to qet married?: beach

- what.
][ do you like to do?: lots of things
][ was the most fun retreat/trip you went on?: wildwood w/ alz
][ relative sends you the most money for christmas?: gramdma
][ do you like about your church or school click?: what?
][ do you want your husband's name to be?: doesnt matter
][ is your fave sport?: softball

- have you in the past 24 hours.
][ cried?: no
][ gotten in major trouble?: no
][ cut your hair?: no
][ ate a meal?: yes
][ hugged someone?: yes
][ kissed someone?: no
][ made a new friend?: no
][ lost something?: no

- have you ever.
][ been so drunk you passed out?: no
][ gone out in public in your pj's?: yes
][ had an imaqinary friend?: no
][ cried durinq a chick flick?: yes
][ sung in front of the mirror?: yes
][ made faces in the mirror?: yes
][ spent more than 1 hour on your hair?: nah

- movies.
][ funniest: dicky roberts, the hot chick
][ could watch over and over aqain: the hot chick
][ last movie you saw?: i know what u did last summer
][ who do you go to the movies with?: friends
][ did you like titanic?: i was 7 sure?

- would you ever.
][ jump out of a plane?: no
][ go bungee jumping?: yeah
][ stay in your room for a whole day?:if it had a tv or computer
][ go in the snow w/o clothes?: y not?
][ skinny dip?: no
][ drink salt water?: yes
][ touch road kill?: yeah
][ smile at your worst enemy?: sure
][ gamble?: dunno
][ have a makeout party?: nah
][ throw a party without your parents?: no
][ go to a foreign country?: yes

- who.
][ would you leave everything you own to if you died tomorrow?: my parents?
][ if you woke up one morninq and noticed that your leg was missing who would be the 1st person you would call?: alexa

- which one.
][ winter/summer: winter
][ beach/mountains: beach
][ pop/punk: punk
][ rock/rap: rock
][ ny/la: la
][ milk chocolate/dark chocolate: dark
][ doqs/cats: dogs
][ britney or Christina: neither
][ mtv/vh1: mtv
][ country/classical: neither
][ day/niqht: night
][ lake/ocean: ocean
][ waffles/pancakes: both
][ soccer/football: football
][ baseball/swimminq: baseball
][ chocolate/vanilla: chocolate
][ suqar/spice: Sugar

- random.
][ ran into a wall?: ya
][ sleep walked?: no
][ qone skinny dippinq?:no
][ kissed someone of the same sex?: --
][ laughed so hard you peed?: haha almost
][ swallow a bug?: yeah
][ ever actually kept a new years resolution?: no

- would you ever.
][ eat bugs puropsely?: yeah
][ commit a crime?: no
][ change your religion?: no
][ jump off a waterfall?: yes
][ change clothes in front of an open window?: whose looking?
][ dress up as the opposite sex for an important event?: yeah
][ go out at night dressed in somethinq like a black trench coat and sunglasses?: no!
][ sing a harmonized duet in front of 500 stranqers?: no!

just enough 2 love you

2004-10-29T20:56:14Z

Push me out from the darkness
To a sky that's colored blue
Somewhere someone's finding happiness
While I'm still here so hung up on you

Nothing is real
And I want you to know
That I'm not alright
When you tear open my chest
I'll try not to flinch
Won't make promises
You taught me that I'm still losing what's left out
My self esteem
And I'm still watching the slow fading of all my daydreams

The hardest things to say are the words that mean the most
So I'll bite my tongue til it bleeds and I doubt you'll even know
The easiest thing to fake's a feeling to fool someone else
And I've been tricked for so long by you
that I spent these last few months in my own hell

A failed apology
A day too late but now I see
That all you really want's to see me dangle neck first from a tree
But what would you need me for
You've got friends galore
And all you'll ever be to me's a stupid lying excuse for a person

I could call
But I know that you won't be there to pick up the phone
You don't have time for me
I could call but I know you won't get the phone
Don't have time for me

I hate myself
For loving you like this
I hate myself for hating myself
Just enough to love you
Just enough to love you

cute_lil_deeee @ 2004-10-29T16:02:00

2004-10-29T20:19:01Z

I WANT: you
I WISH: for many things
I MISS: ******
I FEAR: fear
I WONDER: wut u think
I REGRET: many things
I LOVE: **him**
I ACHE: forr yoouu <33
I ALWAYS: listen 2 music
I AM NOT: a slut
I SING: never
I CRY: rarely
I WRITE: in this journal
I CONFUSE: everyone

x. you get embarrassed when: i do something stupid
x. what upsets you: people
x. you keep a diary: no
x. you like to cook: bake
x. you're in love: no
x. you bite your fingernails: no
x. you believe in love: of course

Who?

who is the hottest person of the opposite sex you know: everett
The prettiest person of the same sex you know: nicoles friend ryan
The weirdest person you know: i think ill have to go with betsy
The Loudest Person : hmMm.. erika molly ali
The Person that Knows the Most about you: alexa
Most Boring Teacher: ms barone

What is...

Last image/thought you went to sleep with: 2 embarassing 2 say
Your best feature: eyes
Favorite Inside joke: idk ... i havee so0 manyy

Do You...?

take a shower everyday: of course
have a(ny) crush(es): yeah
think you've been in love: yeah
want to get married: yeah
have any tattoos?: maybe nah jk i dont havbe ne
piercings?: ears
get motion sickness: no
think you're a health freak: yeah right
get along with your parents: mostly

WHEN YOU SEE THIS NAME YOU THINK Of

Ryan: carter
Bob: THE BUILDER =]
Drew: polhill
Aaron: carter
Eve:6
William: hmm idk
Justin: gorki's ex
Ricky: martin
Jack: and jill

SIGN: virgo
NATURAL HAIR COLOR: brown
CURRENT HAIR COLOR: brown
EYE COLOR: blue

( FAVORITES )
NUMBER: 44!!
COLOR: blue, purple
DAY: saturday
MONTH: december
SONG: just enough 2 love you
SEASON: winter
DRINK: pina colatas :]~
VEGGIE: idk

( PREFERENCES )
CUDDLE OR MAKE OUT? cuddle
CHOCOLATE MILK, OR HOT CHOCOLATE? milk chocolate
MILK, DARK, OR WHITE CHOCOLATE? milk
VANILLA OR CHOCOLATE? chocolate

( IN THE LAST 24 HOURS, HAVE YOU.... )
CRIED? no
HELPED SOMEONE? no
BOUGHT SOMETHING? lunch
GONE TO THE MOVIES? no
GONE OUT FOR DINNER? no
SAID "I LOVE YOU"? no
WRITTEN A REAL LETTER? no
WRITTEN IN A JOURNAL? this
HAD A SERIOUS TALK? no
MISSED SOMEONE? yes
HUGGED SOMEONE? yeah
KISSED SOMEONE? no
FOUGHT WITH YOUR PARENTS? no

busy

2004-10-24T19:12:45Z

what a busy week...
wednesday was our last dual meet it was against briarcliff we won! then after we pushed john n charlie in w/ there clothes on. then erin pants amanda g. lke 3 times it was so funny i couldnt stop laughing. then my sister gave amanda a suit n we went swimming 4 a lil bit after the meet. then thursday i went 2 madden it was fun me n alexa talked 2 dopey this kid w/ a cool fro. yeah he was calling _____ opi cuz shes 'lazy stuck up snotty rude and maybe should have just gone home' it was funny. we did a lot of team work on thursday.we did a thing called "hug a tree" and boy let me tell u was that interesting. u had to go blindfolded and ur partner would lead u 2 a tree then u would have 2 'feel it' hug it and introduce urself....we started laughing when "coach p" said we had 2 feel it and tehn she asked wut was so funny. then dopey was like do u want the real answer then he was like well our childish minds think of something sexualy or he said somethinglike that. then "coach p" was like "its not like ur gunna go tell some1 u felt it up" wow that lady is weird.. yeah so anyways then the person leading u brings u back somewhere and u have 2 find "your tree" we also wrote a letter 2 ourselves which hes gunna mail us back in a yr. i dont wanna say wut i wrote... It was fun at night cuz it was raining. bren d. dressed up in a bear costume and was going around scaring ppl it was funny indeed. i slept w/ alexa tina alexa brianna and steph. we only slept 4 3 hours. tina was sooo hyper from her medication she was telling ppl she was gunna dance naked in the rain n they actually believed her. sad...then we had 2 b in our tents at 10 so then we stayed up 2 5 and we got up at 7:10.....then we had to pack up. then we ate breakfast and listened 2 Dorna talk on and on about a fu*king compass....da-da-da-da-da-dorna da-da-da-da-da-dorna da-da-da-da-da-dorna dorna the explorer!....yeah so then after we did this gay compass thing then we went orienteering in the woods that was fun alexa sunk in the mud....then we took the tent down ate lunch then left 2 go back 2 school >:O....i had science n math grr...then i went 2 the dentist i have 2 get an expander rubber bands n top n bottom braces o goody....
then yesterday i had divisionals we did really good im going 2 sectionals 4 our mely relay we kick ass ohhhh yeahhhh...then i went 2 the diner n alexa had already left but i ate there anyways. then i came home n did my hw. then i talked 2 noelle on the phone 4 a while. then i talked 2 alexa on the phone 4 like 3 hrs. then today i had 2 softball games...we lost 1 n tied one. it was really cold now im not really doing anything just talking 2 alexa...tomorrow i have double math >:O and a quiz....thats it 4 now....

cute_lil_deeee @ 2004-10-08T16:52:00

2004-10-08T20:53:21Z

noelle made me this cool journal :-D thans noelle! its friends only so comment and i will add you...cya at the game :-D x0x